Thursday, July 16, 2009

insanity!!! july-16

ok seriously is there like something in childrens dna or psyche or something that drives them to make their parents completely insane? i am not even kidding i need to know the answer to this because i am about ready to litterally string up my 2 youngest kids by their feet and hang em from a freakin tree and i don't even care if there are witnesses!!!! and you may ask omg, what could possibly drive a mother to feel this way about her children? well ya know what you dont live with my children. so dont judge me!! now yeah i chose to have them all and normally i love being a mom and i love my children always no matter how mad i am and i expect the normal idiocy of kids, i mean their kids, you know skate ramps in the backyard, dirt, messes whatever, but i did not sign up for unflushed toilets and mud that completly covers every surface of a room. and both problems obviously occur in the bathroom. so lets address problem A first.
now my dd khloe who is 5 has some sort of problem with flushing the toilet, she knows how, she is more than capable but she refuses!!!!! and it is driving me crazy cause then my whole house smells disgusting. the kids have their own bathroom and generally i stay out of it except to clean it once a week. they are responsible for keeping it tidy, and i always have to yell at them about it. but i went in there this morning because i am missing 5 towels so i figured i would check if they are in there and the smell hit me instantly and i swear i gagged it was so gross it was like that toilet hadn't been flushed since last week, which it probably hasnt, the kids we using our bathroom becausse they said their sink was clogged but i bet it was the smell and the nasty toilet the kept them out of there (for the most part anyway), and i kept smelling pee and i couldn't figure out where it was coming from and figured the stray cats were peeing by my front door again and so i poured bleach out there but i still smelled it. so i found the source of the nasty smell. so after flushing the toilet i paused and took a good look around the bathroom, OMG!!!! i am telling you my hair stood up on end like a rabid wolf or something. i was out for blood!!!! just thinking about it now makes me want to take and rip somebody apart limb from limb. there was mud caked on every wall, across the rugs, on the floor, covering the sink and countertop, and all across the bathtub. and i am not talking about a handprint or a tiny smear, i am talking like COVERED in mud, and yes the sink was clogged and unusable because of mud being caked in the drain. now some people would be like ok well just clean it up but hell no you didnt see this, i was livid. this is going to take hours to clean up. and not only that but when i spend 500$ on wallpaper, 1,000$ on a sink and cabinet thingy (on sale) 100$ on rugs, 40$ on those litte towel hanger thingys, 2,000$ on tile i expect it to be used as a bathroom and kept at least reasonably picked up. not treated like a freaking wallowing hole for a big fat pig. and i know exactly who the culprit of this little escapade was. it was the one and only kiara rain, who is 7 and completly knows better and when she gets back from vbs she will be cleaning it all. so needless to say i went off this morning. i made them cry and feel bad and i even cussed at them, and you know what, I DON'T EVEN FEEL BAD about it, i hope to god that i hurt their feelings and i hope that their scared that i may beat them until they bleed from their ears, i hope that their fragile little self esteem is broken, because thats how they should feel. and you can call me a cruel heartless bitch all you want, but when my husband works his ass off to give this family a great life and for us to have nice things and i work my ass of taking care of these kids and loving and feeding and do everything humanly possible for these kids and putting all this time and energy into my family and home, and for them to turn around and treat it like garbage and trash the hell out of it, yeah i hope their little hearts are broken. cause i will tell you this, they will never pull this kind of crap again, NEVER!!! and not one of the other kids said a word to me about it, so they got yelled at too.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

oops i forgot the pics

i forgot to post the pics with the july15th blog so here they are

July 15th

man i have been busy busy around here. 4th of july was crazy, we had my sil and her hubs and kids here and also my bil and then 3 of my nephews and my stepson and our 3 girls, i mean we have the room and could've had more people over but i just wasn't in the mood for people, i dont know every since i got sick last year i have just been becoming more and more reclusive, i hate even going to the grocery store because i have to deal with people. idk maybe its just the people i am around. because nobody appreciates anything and they all leave big messes for me to clean up. we used to have big fireworks shows and bbq's and all kinds of parties and stuff but i put an end to it because of all the work i put into and then i cant even enjoy any of it because i have to constantly clean up after people. and i know thats how it generally is when you the hostess but still hubs could help a bit and people could at least say thank you, o but anyway i am not here to rant. so the 4th was cool we all went to clawson for the fireworks show and of course people were driving around the parking lot like idiots so i put the kids in the trunk of the car so they wouldn't get run over or kidnapped or anything. and they ooooh'ed and ahhhh'ed and had a great time. then we all came back to the house for a bonfire and it was cool. we didnt serve drinks or food so there wasn't anything to clean up :). it was pretty mellow esp. for us. and then on the 12th we went to the beach just us and we all got sunburned even with spf 50 sunblock on. and we put it on 2x while we were there. i dont know i think we need like spf 5 billion or something. but the kids played in the water and buried each other in the sand and hubs went out with the for a bit and was throwing them into the air and stuff, not so much with khloe he would just kinda skim her under the water cause she doesnt know how to swim yet and had her arm floaties on. and that poor girl is just as white as i am, kiara on the other hand got more of the italian genes and is darker and tans really well. lucky girl. and monday started vbs (vacation bible school) for the girls and they are having a blast at that. today they are making wooden crosses and had to wear daddys workshirts to class so they dont mess up their clothes. usually i go back to sleep after they leave but i really missed my coffee this morning so i got up and made me a cup. now i just got to find the energy to paint my toenails cause saturday is KID ROCK and hubs got me tickets for mothers day....wooooooooooohoooooo. i cant wait. my dd kelsie is in love with nick jonas from the jonas brothers and we keep telling her that we are going to a jonas brothers concert and that we have backstage passes to hang out with the band and that we only have two tickets and she can't go. she keeps coming up with plans to try to sneek into the concert or begging for daddy to let her go and he can stay home. i told her she cant go but that i will bring her back an autograph, and daddy keeps telling her i am going to kiss nick and she is freaking out, its totally too hilarious. i am just trying to figure out how to sneek in my camera. i know a million people are going to and its going to be up on utube faster than you can blink but i just dont know how to do it. so i got to work that one out.
oh and one other thing on the 12th i dropped a magazine on my toe and sliced it open. yes from a damn magazine. i seriously thought i broke my toe. its just unbelievablly crazy. i was getting things ready to go to the beach and had my hands full of stuff and it slipped and landed right on my toe, a big thick gardening mag. 3 days later and it still hurts. geesh. but ok i am off to paint my nails. hagd e1.